A year ago, I never headache about this issue.
I loves yoga and yet having great passion in dancing.
I managed to cope with them very well and from that time I wish I could turn both my passion into my profession in soon coming future.
One of my future plan.
I am having plenty of time thinking about it and finally today I had took my first step to approach it.
I went to somewhere to ask about the teacher training course of yoga and dancing with my best friend.
That is part of our dream. I am actually so thankful as I have such friend.
Both teacher training courses need great passion and efforts.
I've observed both requirements and found out that I still have big gap to reach it. If I really want to have it, I have to dedicate most of my time and effort to learn and master what I've learned.
That's one thing I worry about.
It actually not because of I got no time or I am not willing to put in effort, but the thing is I scared.
After experienced a quite heavy downpour in my life, I found that I've totally lost my courage.
I lost all my confidence towards myself, people around me, and all the thing that I am doing or want to achieve. Lost. Just this word to describe me.
Where am I?
Only me can find the way out.
NOBODY can help me here now.
Sad and disappointed.
I am just giving more excuses to run out from the reality, living in own world of hallucination which till now I still not wish to wake up.
Should I proceed?
Or just give up?
but I really wish I could go on.
The flame of passion of mine in dancing seems fading now.
Once before it lit brightly and made my mind clear about my way.
Perhaps I should go for yoga first.
Yoga will never be my interest or passion but it already become part of my life.
It guides me, accompany me, makes me feel free, release my true feeling, and also healed me once before.
I am now very clear that once I get started, I can't quit anymore. I have to proceed and cannot give myself any excuses.
The only thing that I worry about is that am I finding the right channel? I am now still working hard on it.
I loves yoga and yet having great passion in dancing.
I managed to cope with them very well and from that time I wish I could turn both my passion into my profession in soon coming future.
One of my future plan.
I am having plenty of time thinking about it and finally today I had took my first step to approach it.
I went to somewhere to ask about the teacher training course of yoga and dancing with my best friend.
That is part of our dream. I am actually so thankful as I have such friend.
Both teacher training courses need great passion and efforts.
I've observed both requirements and found out that I still have big gap to reach it. If I really want to have it, I have to dedicate most of my time and effort to learn and master what I've learned.
That's one thing I worry about.
It actually not because of I got no time or I am not willing to put in effort, but the thing is I scared.
After experienced a quite heavy downpour in my life, I found that I've totally lost my courage.
I lost all my confidence towards myself, people around me, and all the thing that I am doing or want to achieve. Lost. Just this word to describe me.
Where am I?
Only me can find the way out.
NOBODY can help me here now.
Sad and disappointed.
I am just giving more excuses to run out from the reality, living in own world of hallucination which till now I still not wish to wake up.
Should I proceed?
Or just give up?
but I really wish I could go on.
The flame of passion of mine in dancing seems fading now.
Once before it lit brightly and made my mind clear about my way.
Perhaps I should go for yoga first.
Yoga will never be my interest or passion but it already become part of my life.
It guides me, accompany me, makes me feel free, release my true feeling, and also healed me once before.
I am now very clear that once I get started, I can't quit anymore. I have to proceed and cannot give myself any excuses.
The only thing that I worry about is that am I finding the right channel? I am now still working hard on it.
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