ermm...

What am I thinking now?
Isn't that I had already get rid of him?
Why my mind is getting more messy now?
He supposed to leave soon and why still putting hope on him?
He is a good guy but I don't think he would accept me.
oh...
but really hope to know what he is thinking about...
today,
I purposely ignored him when he was trying to talk to me
about something
& I tried my best to control my emotion
however,
after that he just ignored me
like what I did to him
we are best friend once before,
sharing our thoughts,
sorrows and joys...
is impossible he would accept me
but i do always hope that our relationship can maintain
till that day my feeling towards him fades
cause
he is a good guy

passion?~

Everybody would have different passion in their life. No doubt, me too. A year ago, i discovered that i really have great passion in dancing. I can spend all my resting time just for it since i am a person that is really fully-schedule. I have to work, study, and yet have to help my parents. My friends always blaimed me for this because i can seldom meet them even our gathering is like once in a blue moon. This is my choice and I never feel that it will affects my life. My parents always scold me for being went home late in the mid night every time I got practices for performances or competition and yet force me to quit from the dance crew. At that moment, my passion made me overcome all the problems and convinced my parents to let me proceed with it. All people beside me could see the efforts that i put in and my enthusiasm towards dancing. Although my health have been affected due to sleep late everyday, but I never think of giving it up. Until I found that I was actually fool by them and yet can actually learn nothing more, then I made the toughest decision in my life. I HAVE TO GIVE UP, GIVE UP MY GREATEST PASSION! I really don't know whether in the future I can still proceed with it or not, but what I can do that time just let it be. By this, I can reduce all the pain and suffer that I gain though I really can make it better when I hold it tight that time. I really undergo the depression in my life after that. I had lost all the confidence towards myself and trust towards people around me. Luckily, somebody had pulled me out from my valley of depression. He told me that I can dance well, I can do better. Don't ever let my thinking drag my progression. I really feel thankful to him let me get rid of my unhappy experience. I think I could never give up dancing anymore, no matter how bad is the condition. I won let him disappointed anymore.